Another One Goes Down

I Know You Don't Care But

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 17:13:22 GMT

Fuuuuuuck. I can't believe this thing is still here. And most of all, that I remembered this password!

Oh and christ, was I emo. I was really emo way back in the day.

But now I'm like this:

(Borat costume)

Have a nice day.

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 04:45:21 GMT

No updates in how many months.

Um.

I'm doing okay. Rebecca says if I didn't update she'd hurt me. Which is impossible, really, because she's so petite and she can't even push me very hard anyway.

We're reading Anthem by Ayn Rand and it makes me think. There's this time when I read the book and I felt so completely hopeless and sad and just- well, it's an interesting read.

Have not picked up my guitar in weeks now. I should soon. Pick it up and strum it like old times and maybe I can sit down on the bed and sing or try to and maybe I'll feel a bit better than how I've been lately. Like. I don't know.

Nobody emails me. That sucks. Someone email me.

Almost forgot to mention that Mia Kirshner is fucking hott.

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 03:57:15 GMT

my mom spent her whole afternoon along with a bunch of other people hanging by the road and showing off Kerry support posters. she asked if i wanted to come. i said no. and then she shook her head and asked when was I going to "stop this" and i said "stop what?" and all she did was take my hand and squeeze it, kissing my forehead and whispering something i couldn't hear correctly. and it made me feel like i was a little kid again and i just skinned my knee or something and here she is comforting me.

she's good at that. making you feel something other than what you want to, i mean. but she has a weakness for cameras, for bacon, for Reeses, for spongecake- and it's funny if you think about it. like that time she took kate's Waitresses CD and sang along to "I Know What Boys Like" for three hours straight. i mean, she's capable of a lot, my mom. too much, maybe, i don't know. sometimes i think she is. and sometimes it's too easy to tell that she wants more from everything. if only...

my dad voted for bush.

you're lucky you didn't hear the crazy loud argument they had this morning about politics.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 08:53:31 GMT

Can't sleep.

Wore my Spiderman costume to school last Friday. I think it was obvious it was tight. Haha. I've never heard "Nice ass" so many times in one day.

It's almost 1 am. What's there to mention?

I miss talking on AIM. I haven't signed on there for the longest.

I think I should soon.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 04:57:13 GMT

alive. surviving. that's all that's important.

i don't know why i don't update as much as before. this always happens. i get so excited and i'm so into something for a good amount of time and then i just drop it. forget about it. and it's only a handful of times where i've finished what i've started. well, i updated today so i guess that means i'm still into this- if only for a short while before i forget about this again.

ms. quicke, yesterday, wanted us to draw faces of different moods. she used us as examples. beth was happy. myron was angry. and then she walked right up to me, and said "troubled", and she looked at me so closely i swear it felt like she could see right into my soul.

i feel the same, as always, towards algebra.

I'M ALIVE!!

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 04:54:26 GMT

Haha.

All right. Well. High school sucks.

I hate Algebra. I suck at algebra completely.

Not much has happened to me. I'm Rebecca's "love monkey" now. Haha.

Hmm..what else?

Stew turned punk over night. It depresses the hell out of me because it's like he's just doing it because it's kool. And now the punk kids call him "Trailer Trash". It's sad.

I went into the girls locker room chasing Cassie. It smells good in there.

Kate wore boots and this sweater thing that made her look like a hooker one morning. I made her change her clothes. I doubt she dressed that way intentionally, but still.
She eats meat, although sparingly, now.

My dad said he would take me fishing a few days ago. He lied.

And, I really hope my mom is happy. Not about me not going fishing (she was upset about it) but about.. her life.. or something, I mean. I really do. I've seen her look at herself a lot lately and it's like she's just not seeing herself correctly. I'd like to.. nevermind. I hope she's happy.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 00:54:01 GMT

Funniest thing <-- scroll down to the part about Lindsay Lohan, then read the comments. If you don't find it at least half amusing, I don't know what's wrong with you.

Nothing else to say.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 08:49:58 GMT

i am very bored and i can't sleep. lamictal curse you! my sleep hours have been nuttier ever since i came back though. i think i get like 5 hours of sleep every day. and no, i haven't been drinking caffeine. rebecca drinks like ten cups of coffee everyday. it's crazy. i've actually seen her drink three cups of coffee in a row. goddamn fish with a caffeine addiction. hehe. i get a really funny mental picture with that.

*shakes head* i'm talking nonsense. must. sleep. good morning.

later...

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 07:42:50 GMT

also, the new rilo kiley CD is nowhere to be found. someone tell me where to buy it? i was listening to this one song where in one part jenny does this breathing thing.... and jesus! when you hear a girl breathing like that and she's singing about some girl sleeping inside you and how touching leads to sex and then earlier she was yelling for you to "COME HERE!".... well, you just have to like it.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 04:37:18 GMT

please note to never go to tabworld.com because that place is evil and that spy sweeper works a helluva lot better than that norton anti virus crap.

i went to the doctor today for a check up. california by phantom planet kept playing every few minutes. very creepy. the doctor kept saying how it was such a great song and if i was glad to be back in "cali" after a month of being away. i told him i never left but i don't think he heard me. doctors like him don't hear anything.

it was also really hot today. in the car driving over to and from the doctor my mom put the air conditioner to its highest because she knows how i get when it's too hot. it worked in the car but at home i went crazy on her anyway. sometimes i wonder how she puts up with me and my craziness so much and i almost regret not talking to her like i used to.

oh and christa wants to make out with me with masks on and pop rocks in our mouths. is that kinky or what? haha. my kind of woman. :D

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 19:57:10 GMT

to finish off the entry from this morning, i guess i wish i had more things to say. it's strange coming home after a month and not having anything to really show for it. jake came around a few days ago and asked what i did while i was away. he asked if i got him a souvenir or anything. kate told him to keep quiet. i'm glad she did.

hil got me shoelaces as a welcome back present. they're the kind that have "fuck you" all over them. thanks hil. :D

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 07:18:13 GMT

mom finally let me use the computer. i think i've been home for a few days. things feel different for some reason. i don't know. i feel different. not much else to say, i guess. i came home in less than a month. everything that happened to me has been a blur. not much else to say.

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 17:03:47 GMT

i'm leaving in a few minutes. i'm packed and everything. apparently, this morning were my last few hours of "freedom". please note: rebecca, you are as crazy as i am. *smirk*.

well, i don't know if i'm still going to AZ. my folks might just go without me- they have a whole month (and maybe more) that they won't be doing anything. i hope they'll wait till i get back. i want to go that biosphere 2 thing there that christa was talking about. it sounded pretty kool.

so anyway, yeh, i hope i get home earlier than last time. kate was all "please don't be so difficult with everyone so that you can come home soon" or something and then she started crying her head off. *shakes head* well, i think i'm going to listen to her this time. and.. i guess i have to leave now because my mom is calling me from the door. i guess this is goodbye... *tears up* lol.

--- before i go: Sam is hott and we are wild and sexy animals. *Growl*
:D

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 08:18:41 GMT

did the gig on friday.

(todd)

(todd. again. maureen took fifty billion pictures of him)

(me and jake. yeh, the real picture doesn't have our faces either. maureen hates us. this was during rehearsal.)

right, well, i'm too lazy to upload the other pictures. and every picture with hil has her hand instead of her face. *shrug* next time maybe.

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 22:38:02 GMT

yesterday was fun. we grilled and my cousins came over. the burgers were really really good. really juicy and all. we had ribs too. kate got a veggie burger though, so she missed out. i saw her looking at the meat on the grill though. talk about temptation. lol.

my cousins are staying for another few days. it's going to be fun. we're going to play on the game cube a lot, i bet.

(alan's way of being friendly. haha.)

and then nat, kate, billy, and i made those icon things. i redid my icon -the second one- it looks closer to me now.

about the thing i posted earlier

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 07:22:30 GMT

because of cassie's teasing, lol, i just wanted to say that i have never purchased illegal porn either.
i've never purchased any type of porn. thank you. *smirk*

wrote this with christa on AIM:

Tippy: The Saga
by: TJA and CRJ

: once upon a time there was a puple elephant named tippy who fell from the sky
: she landed on a shopping cart and caused it to roll downhill in the street and she caused a lot of car accidents
: umm... so the animal control people came.. and they hit her with on of those tranquilizer darts...
: they took her to the local zoo and came to the decision that they were going to put tippy(was that her name?).. to sleep.. it was tippys time to die for all of the trouble she has caused with her.. falling... and purpleness...
: and then some circus performers found out about her and then busted her out and she lived with them in a train
: but the animal control people were still looking for her and she was in the news all the time
: as a disguise she wore leather pants and a wig
: even though she kind of enjoyed the leather pants.. one day she realized she was sick of being something she's not.... she isnt just a regular old purple elephant wearing leather pants and a wig... she was meant to play music and perform.. she remembered the days when her mom taught her to play the harp with her trunk and dreamed that one day she could play again.... so she thought about running away.. leaving the people who had helped her stay alive
: so one day she packed up her bags and and left (without telling the circus people) to julliard where she got a scholarship for playing the harp. so now the animal control and the circus people were looking for her
: and then one day she got a solo in a concert and one animal control person saw her
: so she had to leave right in the middle of the concert
: and was on the run again
: shes on the run going from town to town and one night shes at a bar singing kareoke.. ( dont know how to spell it) and shes sees this red elephant sitting in the back with a smile on his face... she finsished her song and then steps off stage..... the red elephant motions for tippy to come over to him and he wraps his trunk around tippys big fat purple body... the hug was comforting to her since it was the first one she has had in a long time.... comforting almost like a parent would comfort there child.. and then she realized.. it was her father.
: tippy had thought her father to be dead, but there he was right next to her. she cried and he cried- so glad to see eachother until the whole bar was flooded and then the police came and had to arrest them for drowning everybody. they had to run away from them too. now the animal protection, the circus, and the police people were looking for her. one day, hiding out, the father and daughter elephant bought some new leather and motorcycles and a joined a motorcycle gang
: so anyways.. after the first day of being in the motorcycle gang... they were faced with the harsh realities of being big giant fat colored elephants
: and that is.. they cant ride motorcylces
: they both died trying.
: the end

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 03:51:35 GMT

(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN DRUNK
(x) I HAVE NEVER SMOKED POT
( ) I HAVE NEVER KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(x) I HAVE NEVER KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I HAVE NEVER CRASHED INTO SOMEONE ELSE'S CAR
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN *(Asian girls are hott)
( ) I HAVE NEVER RIDDEN IN A TAXI
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN TRULY IN LOVE
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX *
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX IN PUBLIC *
( ) I HAVE NEVER BEEN DUMPED
(x) I HAVE NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN FIRED
( ) I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD A THREESOME *(haha.. just kidding)
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY) *(that would be pretty interesting)
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(x) I HAVE NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(x) I HAVE NEVER STOLEN SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(x) I HAVE NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEAR'S EVE IN TIMES SQUARE *
(x) I HAVE NEVER GONE ON A BLIND DATE
( ) I HAVE NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
( ) I HAVE NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(x) I HAVE NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS *
(x) I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE *(European girls are hott)
( ) I HAVE NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(x) I HAVE NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER (that's happening BEFORE i get married)
( ) I HAVE NEVER BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(x) I HAVE NEVER THROWN UP IN A BAR
(x) I HAVE NEVER PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE
( ) I HAVE NEVER EATEN SUSHI
( ) I HAVE NEVER BEEN SNOWBOARDING
( ) I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPY WITH MYSELF
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX IN A DRESSING ROOM
(x) I HAVE NEVER CHEATED ON A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND
(x) I NEVER SEE THE GOOD SIDES OF THINGS.
( ) I HAVE NEVER FLASHED ANYONE. (that time was purely accidental though)
(x) I HAVE NEVER LEGALLY PURCHASED PORNOGRAPHY

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 04:38:33 GMT

i found a lot of pictures yesterday and in a few of them i'm wearing a jelly bracelet. i don't even know how i got it in the first place, i'm pretty sure i didn't walk into a store and buy it. i think one of the colors was for a lap dance or something. *smirk*. i wonder where it is now.
i showed jake, hil, and todd the pictures when they came over. we all practically split our sides laughing so much. then we used paint shop pro and made mustaches and red dots on some of the pictures. just to note, i don't look very good with a curly mustache. haha.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 00:41:40 GMT

single again. anyone want to hook up? haha. i missed lisa today. she came over and we went walking and just talked and i don't know, i missed her even if she was just right there next to me. we both sort of agreed to it though, which was a good thing. i hate when one person gets dumped and gets all depressed. i say this because i usually end up the depressed one. haha.

the band got a gig. i forget where. someplace. anyway, there's a few other bands playing. we get three songs each, i think. anyway it's going to be one helluva long night.
the line up goes:
Contribution
Pretty Dead Girls
Richard Cranium (that's us!)
Mealymouthed Servants

we played with Contribution before but i've only heard of the other two.

i don't get what's so great about Bright Eyes.

random stuff

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 03:15:02 GMT

darkness thinks i'm pretty.

The sky is blue, but an impossible sort of blue. The kind that fits perfectly with the dark green and gray around you and makes you wonder and feel so small.

"You can fall into the sky like this," she says dreamily. "Jump from this rock here and watch the wind pick you up."

She laughs and tilts her head back, eyes closed and smiling.

And you tell yourself she isn't talking to you, not really.

But her hand tightens in yours, and you wonder.

i took another "delightful" picture of kate this morning. why is that everytime i take a picture it comes out all fuzzy? anyway, i was tinkering around with paint shop pro. caption time!

haha.

i'm attempting to write a dark captain hook fic at the moment. it blows. but i'm sick of writing all this romantic crap. enough of that.

ha, watch me come up with some romantic crap again.

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 00:29:24 GMT

my perfect face.. *shakes head* i have a black eye, a cut inside my lip (kind of swollen), a cut under my eye, a possibly swollen nose, and i'm afraid my front teeth are going to fall out.. auggh. my face stings.

if that stupid bastard hadn't provoked me... augh... i hope i don't get grounded.

insomnia

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 10:07:16 GMT

"I think that Clueless was very deep. I think it was deep in the way that it was very light. I think lightness has to come from a very deep place if it's true lightness." - Alicia Silverstone

ha that is so ridiculous. but she is so hott.

i need sleep NOW!!!

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 04:14:07 GMT

second post in one day. i must be really bored. i was in a chat with a few of my friends a little while ago

jake: maggie lwson s fuckin hott
mike: i dont even know what the fuck you just typed
jake: *maggie lawson
jake: shut the fuck up i made a mistake
mike: cock sucker shut up
me: all right. jesus. whos maggie lawson?
jake: mike shut up you fucking retard
jake: turn on the family channel
me: that's alicia silverstone..?
mike: your the fucktard
mike: and hes right
jake: u both got sattelite look at that info crap thing
mike: ya ya ya tever
me: dude that sounds gay
jake: tever! LMAO
mike: ya im so gay
mike: shut up
mike: maggie lawson is hott
me: alicia silverstones hotter
jake: yeah jared u even got hard watching that 1 movie of hers
me: ???!!!!
me: what? i never said that!
mike: blackmail!!! what movie? does lisa know?
me: i never said i got hard!! jake you friggin liar
jake: it was a porno movie and she was undressing in front of some dude
mike: i thought you said yo didfnt watch pornos lol
me: lol shut up it wasnt a porno movie and i didnt even see her totally naked!
me: and i didnt get hard!
jake: dude remember ben was asking everyone what movie makes us hard? you said that alicia movie
mike: i said american pie when he asked that lol
me: i said i ALMOST got hard!
jake: dude thats close enough!
mike: LMAO jake you and me should tell lisa bout this
me: shut up lol next topic

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 19:59:32 GMT

emo music makes me depressed.

aunt mim sent me the kind of shirt i wouldn't buy if i first saw it. i think she knows me better than i do. i wore it outside and the lady across the street said i looked "sharp" in it. i should wear shirts like that more often. *smirk*

rebecca asked if i knew how wonderful i am. i don't understand her.

i hate when people call somebody "baby". it's annoying. "c'mere baby" "you look really nice baby" "blah blah blah baby". jesus, that's annoying.

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 06:19:51 GMT

they need haircuts badly

went to a dance a few days ago. it was a lot more fun than i expected it to be. everything always is.

i watched a movie called "july rhapsody" this week. it was really slow paced and sort of boring. there was this one part though that was awesome. it was when the two leads were just looking at eachother, and the girl was in front of the door. i can't describe the feeling in that scene. lots of hopefulness, i guess, and all that "don't do it!"ness about it. very endearing.

i talked to mr. rennolds today. he knocked on the door.

"Hello! I was wondering if I could talk to your mother?"
"Who are you?"
"The name's Brandon Rennolds, I know your mother from-"
"Work. Yeh, I know. I know exactly who you are."
"And you're Jared. You seem to be a very bright young man."
"You don't even know me."
"Your mother's told me a lot about you though."
"You both still had time to talk about things like that?"

*A few seconds of glaring at eachother*

"Son, your mother is an-"
"Don't tell me about my mother. You don't even know her {why i said that is beyond me}."
"I know her quite well actually."
"You dirty bastard. Don't even say things like that-"

at this point i was straddling him and punching his lights out, yelling and cussing at him until my dad came and pulled me off him. kate and my mom haven't found out about it yet. they left this morning to nevada. my dad didn't ground me.